Let’s start here; I’m adding a year on Wednesday the 6th of June. Although many celebrate, I have mixed up feelings about birthdays because that means that the time is closing in on the goals that I wish to achieve before I turn a certain age. But nonetheless, life is a gift that we should always be grateful for, so I’m grateful. And the advancement in years is one of those things which are beyond our control, so we either complain or ride the wave; I’m an optimist, so I ride the wave.

This blog is about what I have been pondering on as I grow older, that is besides, “oh my God, time is running out. I still have to do this or that’’. Anyway, my thoughts have been on happiness. I’m big on happiness of late. I have been thinking and interrogating the concept of happiness, what it means and how it’s attained. And most importantly, if I am happy and thinking on what makes me happy. And such an internal conversation has brought me to a place where I am more aware of myself, particularly my state of mind and emotions.

Anyway, my resolve is that if I’m not happy now with what I have got and what I am doing, then there is a possibility that I will never be. For me, the thought that I could chase wealth all my life and finally get it, only to find that it doesn’t equal the happiness I thought it would come with, is enlightening and unsettling at the same time. Or finally get my dream girl or dream car, or build my dream business and find that the happiness I thought it would come with is not there.

I feel that if I can’t be happy now, then I probably won’t be tomorrow. And of course this correlates with the idea that happiness stems from appreciating what you have instead of obsessing over what you don’t have. From another perspective, it would be a pity to live half of my life unhappy while chasing something that promises me happiness at 50 or so. Imagine that! With the current life expectancy, I would spend only 20 years of my 70 years happy.
Am I happy? Hell yeah. I love what I’m doing. I love building what I’m currently building. I chose happiness. It is an inside job as the cliché states. I deserve happiness.